New Chapter - Mother Archetype

I really hope one day that I write a book, so if anyone knows how I can make that happen then please share. As for now it’s more frequent journal posts and videos on Instagram and YouTube because quite honestly what happens in one day is enough to fill a whole chapter in this magical book of life!

Why do I share?

Because I absolutely love life and the beauty of it all, the highs, the lows and all the juicy bits in the middle. Because I want you to believe and experience finding joy and beauty in your every day life and to love the life you live.

Writing/journaling/storytelling is a creative passion of mine and always has been from a very young age and I will continue to share and inspire through these creative portals.

I want to talk about the power of energy. Now as you may or may not know I have always had a keen interest in astrology. I had been looking into courses for a while and was really putting it out there that I would like to learn more in this area. I then went to an ecstatic dance event in December in Perpignan and a lady came up and spoke with me at the end, inviting me to join her for a tea or walk sometime. A week later we met up and got chatting and she then told me she is an Astrologer… what are the chances?! This is the power of energy and manifestation wonderful humans!

Also around this time I had an ancestral healing session and what came up in that was the energy of the Mother, the Mother archetype. Going deeper into this, all of the masters I have associated with up to this date were men and I have previously spoken about spending my time heavily in my masculine which would have had the mastery but until now, as my feminine side had not been able to access it.

Doing the release work with this enabled me to begin bringing balance between these two energies and then cue Claudine, the astrologer and soon to demonstrate this Mother Archetype to me.

I spent some time In Perpignan with Claudine learning from her whilst also beginning to experience and witness a Mothers' love . As you may or may not know, my Mother passed when I was 13. So to be experiencing these emotions brought up a lot within me. It brought up overwhelming feelings of how much I have missed not having that connection with a Mother growing up and as an adult, how it feels to be loved by a mother as an adult and how grateful I am to this lady who has come into my life and provided me with such love. At the same time I was met with resistance, not knowing how to receive this energy. During this time just before Christmas, where I was living, suddenly the hot water and gas stopped working and if you know France (these things are slower) and the reception of where I'm staying at the campsite was closed over the whole Christmas period. I feel very grateful and blessed that I have built some wonderful connections and friendships here and had plenty of places that welcomed me into their spaces. However I ended up staying with Claudine for the whole of the Christmas and New Year period as it felt the right place and space for me to be.

Now just to backtrack a little bit, ever since I turned 33 in August last year, I have noticed the Jesus Christ energy appearing in my life and around me. If you are around this age or have been this age I wonder, what was it like or how has it been for you? If you look into it there is a lot written about this age and connecting with Jesus Christ energy. I have been contacted by missionaries whilst in London and over here in France. Whilst in London I ended up going to a chapel and asking for forgiveness, I can only describe it as being something I felt called to do, something within me. During the time my Mum was ill I remember praying so much for her to get better and when this didn't happen it really stifled my beliefs in anything. So I felt pulled to release any negative energy I may have had stuck around this.

Here in France on Christmas eve, I decided it would be nice to go out and see all the lights and I also really felt and pictured myself attending a midnight mass, I’ve never been to one but I could see this vision of everyone singing and feel the energy of it all and just the power of the date, I feel as if I was being reborn and have been travelling through all these layers for a while. Now we headed out and met another friend, we sat outside in a little restaurant space and had mulled wine, then all of a sudden all these guards came and appeared and it turns out we were sitting outside the main chapel in Perpignan. The chimes started ringing, suddenly I realised that's where there was going to be a midnight mass, my friend said she would join me. We entered and

wow it was beautiful. The whole ceremony was magical and I could really feel the energy deeply. That day I had been seeing the Moses basket in displays of Bethlehem all empty without baby Jesus and then during the ceremony he was brought into the chapel and it was such a special moment, one I still can only describe as what felt like a reborn energy. That evening something magical happened, as I have mentioned before about my dreams providing me with a lot of guidance. Something happened that evening that I can only describe as potentially the start of clairaudience, I will see what continues to unfold there.

Christmas was spent very relaxed and I was noticing how I was shifting more and more into my feminine energy of receiving. I was allowing myself to receive so much and I felt so unbelievably blessed and grateful to be experiencing all of this. I began deeply connecting to the Mother Archetype within me and really tending to my own needs through a motherly energy and it has been a significant shift I can not only feel but also notice and witness in myself and how I show up.

After Christmas I got invited to attend a New Year's eve retreat over in Spain, I had been here in November for a retreat and loved the idea of going back, so a few days later I headed over and with it only being 1hour 30 mins to this beautiful place in the Spanish mountains it felt like a no brainer. I was really feeling like I wanted to be around like minded souls, to dance and be free and have beautiful chats around the fire, to explore the depths of myself more whilst around others that support this life. This retreat also brought up more and more of the Mother archetype energy around me. There were families and children at this retreat and I just had this moment of ‘oh ok this is possible to have this life and children’’ I have had a vision of being part of retreats for a long while and seeing it in this way was truly beautiful. The amount of joy, magic and play the children brought to this retreat and all around was so special.

I was truly noticing how much I was changing as a person on all the levels, I constantly put myself into situations that make me uncomfortable to learn and grow, to continue to step into the unknown. Being surrounded by such inspiring souls helped to shine the light into parts of me that I still wanted to work with. The main one being letting go of not feeling confident in who I am when around others.

This whole retreat provided me with so much. During a cacao ceremony I allowed myself to be held by another man whilst I let go to release and cry. I felt so supported and was surprising myself by how much I was able to be so open and receive, going more and more into my feminine energy. I created beautiful friendships with women who felt like sisters and to this point now I am continuing to connect with them in such a beautiful way, I was experiencing sisterhood in the way I always believed it to be.

Everything I have I dreamt, imagined and believed about how I wanted and envisioned my life to be is slowly unfolding and becoming a true reality right in front of my eyes and that is another level of magick…

This is why I want to continue to inspire and show the power of energy and the life and world you can create from that space.

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